Finding your groove can be hard. For years I couldn't find my place in the world. I remember this moment when someone asked me what my hobbies were or my interests. YIKES --- all I did was work, do school, and watch netflix. Could I say eating and netflix were my hobbies? I did a lot of that. It was around this time I started to feel lost. I was a person without a purpose. I had no hobbies. I had no passions and I was extremely uncomfortable with who I was becoming and how I was feeling in my skin.
Life was falling apart and the more I started to think about it the more I became negative and down on myself. Lack of self worth, confidence and a purpose that spoke to my heart felt like a downward spiral into a deep dark hole. You know the kind where you want to hide for ever and hope you become invisible. That was me. Trust me it isn't a place you want to visit for a long period of time.
I decided one day to face the sun and climb my way out of that hole.
I learnt that there is no low that you can't turn into a high. You have the power to create your destiny and enjoy every minute of it. Think of it this way --- you hit a fork in the road and don't know which way is the right way to go. BUT is there really a right way? I mean, I am sure one way is safer or more time efficient but each way provides a different path, a different journey and a different experience. Who is to say that one path will take you to your purpose and happiness in life and another will not.
I spent so much time thinking I needed the perfect journey in life --- the perfect hobbies that would connect me to people, the perfect "career", the perfect marriage, the perfect dog (I really do have that), and the perfect health and fitness journey. But what I have learnt is your whole journey is perfect. All the ups and downs too. Your journey is what defines you. It is what makes your life fulfilling.
Today I look back at my life and I can see that my weight gain had a purpose. It lead me to breaking down and losing my way.Which is funny because losing my way actually made me find my way. Imagine feeling like your whole life is crumbling down to then turn around and see that your life is actually just starting to come together. Hitting "rock" bottom pushed me to see what I was really capable of. I learnt that I had more will power and determination than Mercy wanting to go outside with her dad. I found out that I had a deep passion for helping people and that was the reason why I went to school to be a teacher and thus became a coach with Beachbody. I experienced what it truly felt to feel fulfilled and have a passion for the first time. A passion to LIVE and enjoy what the world had to offer me. Hitting rock bottom gave me my life back and allowed me to have the opportunity to grow as a person and change my perspective of the world around me.
I found my groove because the wrong path with the ups and downs allowed me to view myself and experience being me in a whole new way. Because of fitness, personal development and surrounding myself with the positive people that call themselves coaches I am ALIVE.
Life was falling apart and the more I started to think about it the more I became negative and down on myself. Lack of self worth, confidence and a purpose that spoke to my heart felt like a downward spiral into a deep dark hole. You know the kind where you want to hide for ever and hope you become invisible. That was me. Trust me it isn't a place you want to visit for a long period of time.
I decided one day to face the sun and climb my way out of that hole.
I learnt that there is no low that you can't turn into a high. You have the power to create your destiny and enjoy every minute of it. Think of it this way --- you hit a fork in the road and don't know which way is the right way to go. BUT is there really a right way? I mean, I am sure one way is safer or more time efficient but each way provides a different path, a different journey and a different experience. Who is to say that one path will take you to your purpose and happiness in life and another will not.
I spent so much time thinking I needed the perfect journey in life --- the perfect hobbies that would connect me to people, the perfect "career", the perfect marriage, the perfect dog (I really do have that), and the perfect health and fitness journey. But what I have learnt is your whole journey is perfect. All the ups and downs too. Your journey is what defines you. It is what makes your life fulfilling.
Today I look back at my life and I can see that my weight gain had a purpose. It lead me to breaking down and losing my way.Which is funny because losing my way actually made me find my way. Imagine feeling like your whole life is crumbling down to then turn around and see that your life is actually just starting to come together. Hitting "rock" bottom pushed me to see what I was really capable of. I learnt that I had more will power and determination than Mercy wanting to go outside with her dad. I found out that I had a deep passion for helping people and that was the reason why I went to school to be a teacher and thus became a coach with Beachbody. I experienced what it truly felt to feel fulfilled and have a passion for the first time. A passion to LIVE and enjoy what the world had to offer me. Hitting rock bottom gave me my life back and allowed me to have the opportunity to grow as a person and change my perspective of the world around me.
I found my groove because the wrong path with the ups and downs allowed me to view myself and experience being me in a whole new way. Because of fitness, personal development and surrounding myself with the positive people that call themselves coaches I am ALIVE.
You my dear are worth going down that other path.
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